Wednesday, July 27, 2005
you know what really kills me and makes me go sane ? like totally TOTALLY insane. it's stupid. but i'm still gonna say.

looking at people's friendster & thier photos.
it makes me so depressed to see how much fun and color their lives have.
and how much FUN i'm having.
i used to be like that. but thats over.. no yes no yes no yes no yes. whatever ;
it just makes me sad. and angry.
i dont look good in pictures with my so called "friends" here
i've given up already. i tried so hard to fit in.
sure.. i tried. so hard. no one cared.
all i can make myself know now is that..
no matter what.
when i come back next yearrrrrrr. which it SHOULD be or i'll kill my dad....
i'm gonna rock until i die. HA HA HA
well. i just hope no one forgets me.
cause i wont.
never.
and thats a promise thats in my heart, forever.

"A true friend is someone who walks in when the whole world walks out" Lets see how that is actually TRUE...

true <3 never dies. hmm.
i might change this into a simple layout. ah whatever.
<3 much,
mel.

its like no matter how much i try to forget you i just cant. and it fucking drives me nuts. why is this happening to me? arghhhhh.

Monday, July 25, 2005
i guess everything was just a lie.
all this time you were pretending to me just to get into my bloody face.
i will NEVER forgive you.
or i might not.
my emotions are too hurt right now for what you have done
you bloody ASSHOLE

i know i should of have not trusted you.
my trust has been broken, forever.
you hurt me enough.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005
fucking bored...

i'm being random. school sucks. boring old shit

check this out
TORNAPART go and see. i demand you to. and leave me a nice comment. hahaha !

Sunday, July 17, 2005
moments forever faded

I'm so near.. Yet so far away. No matte what happens, i'll always be there for you; no matter what you're going through. Through thick & thin, through big & small.

Everyone stops coming here already ): It's sad really. Gah. My life is crumbling before me.

The embers will burn you, will burn you tonight

Goodnite. I'm tired. <3 always. And forever

Tuesday, July 12, 2005
so am I still waiting
for this world to stop hating

hello everyone.. feeling very dead. sorta tired and stuff i guess. i think im suffering from depression. ha ha ha ! what a joke. whatever.
school was so boring. english. maths. art. art. pe. pe. maths we're doing geomerty now.. and art was sorta boring. we're going to do this celebrity painting thing now.. doing avril lavigne. heh. and then pe was the worst. it was friggin cold and we had to have pe outside. even though we had warm ups it didnt help at all. and there was a slight wind which isnt good. hurhur. and then we went to the park to play softball. and i HATE softball. the ball is soppose to be SOFT but its hard like shit. which is LAME. because its besides the point. and it was cold and MUDDY and my shoes were muddy. ew. okay.
okay. errr. religion and chinese and dramaaaa and geog tml ! woo hoo. lol.
love all. <3

Monday, July 11, 2005
i tried to be perfect
but nothing was worth it

Been a long time since i blogged here ! Haha. Changed the layout. Something simple. I like it alot. Hahaha.
School's starting tomorrow ): School's a chore. Haa.
And we got pe tml. And er.. Art ? Ew. I suck at art. Heheh.
Anyways, my sis went out today.. And she came back alr. And she just gave me something. How niceeee she got me a the used small badge. Its nice. :D
Okay... This blog is ulber dead. Like SERIOUSLY. Heheh. Tag me when you peeps come okay. My tagboard is too dead to be true.
I hope my parents bought the ice-cream i wanted from the supermarket. Heheh.
<3 all. Misses much.

Thursday, July 07, 2005
What's the point of holding on to the one thing everyone has let go off months ago ?
I care...
No one else does.
That sucks.
Why can't thing's be like the past ?

In the end..
In doesn't even MATTER.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005
speed of sound

Hohoho, i'm dyeing my hair now :D
The dye's on my hair and im leaving it for 30mins ! Hahah ! But seriously, i cant see a shit difference. Like AT ALL ! Hurhur :/
Anyways, i edited my site's cutenews and did some stuffs. Lol.
And my cousion is going surfing tonight. like !#^$%^$.
Crazy arse. Its WINTER. Ha ! Oh well. Today was a nice day. Sun, not cold.. heh.
Talked to xiu for a longggggg time on the phone ! Wished her happy birthday and all. Haha.
Watched school of rock AGAIN ! <3> ARGH. My life is boring. Bye. <3

Tuesday, July 05, 2005
best of you

Hello everyone :D
New layout :D Featuring Foo fighters ! Their songs are nice. esp the song best of you. Hahaha.
Anyways, went to cut my hair with my sister yesterday. And i bought a new billabong wallet too ! Gna dye my hair later. Wheee (:
My head hurts.. Real bad. ARGH. Maybe i'll take panadol ltr.
Haaaa. Had a good dinner ystd. We had pizza hut. And we got this game too. Its called need for speed underground 2. Its pretty cool i guess. Designing your own car and racing it. Hahaha !
Okay. My new website is like DEAD la. NO one. Go visit it peeps ! Its.... still raw. Ha.
Anyway, boring. The sink's ok already. The plumber came ystd. So yeah
Goodbye. <3

Oh yes.. And another thing...
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY XIU !!!!!!!!!
<3 ya loads forever. sorry im not there to celebrate with you ):

Sunday, July 03, 2005
My life is going down in a downhill. Like wooooooooosh. Downhill. My life is falling apart. Real bad. And it sucks, alot. ): Not my life here in aus. My life in singapore. I mean i'm not there there. But, it's like.. I miss everyone. But it's like.. hopeless ? If you know what i mean. Everything is like gna crash soon. Everyone is having so much fun. And im not saying that they cant la. Just that.... why cant things be like how they used to be ? I know its not possible. Fuck its imposible but whatever. I hate it. Okay enough depressing shits.

i hate myself for losing you
i'm seeing it all so clear

My life fucking hell fucking sucks.
I hate drifting. It sucks. No one can feel it like i do.
I'm not being mean. I just hate it. Fuckinghell.
Okay enough depressing shits.
Going to cut my hair tml :D And i'm dying it on tuesday. Wooohoo ! Cant wait. I just hope they dont screw up my hair this time. Or i'll punch em real hard. Hahaha.
Anyways, my dad bought this really REALLY expensive tap filter thingy. To filter the water. And its really cool ! Lol. And we got a freezer too. And the plumber is coming at like 9am tml. Isnt that just great ? The sink was the worst today. Like fucking bad. We couldn't even wash finish the dishes ! Like the very oily stuff. Hurhur. The frying pan. Thats all la. Lol.
And we rented 6 dvds ! School of rock, supersizedme, the tuxedo, star wars, king arthur & the medallian ! Haha. My family just loves jackie chan. HAHAHA.
And tml we're celebrating my sister's birthday at homeee ! We're ordering this pizza hut meal which cost like $35 dollars ? And it comes with dono what dono what and dono what la ! And it even comes with a free game ! Sims 2 or smth and some other game ! Hahahaha.
OOOH I love stuffed crust. HEHEHE =D
OKAY WHATEVER.
My new website has OFFICALLY OPENED ALREADY ;D
Just click
HEREEEEEEEEEE
Give comments OKAY. It still has tons of junk to be added. HAHAHA.
Anyway. LOVE ALL. <3

Saturday, July 02, 2005
why don't you do something

Pretty tired as of now... 12:19am, sunday 3 july 05.
Been working since after dinner... On my site. The stupid cutenews html shit stuffs. And now i think i might not even use it and switch to graymatter. But it might be a bad idea. So heckcare.
ANYHOWS.... went out to Springvale today yesterday. Was quite fun. Ate beef noodle soup which was yummy [: And then we walked around and bought like tons of food stuff. Lol...
Then we went to Westfield for awhile then home. We were gna go to this church at Burwood highway. But we didn't.. We're going there tml morning instead. Lol. pretty crowded... The carpark. haha ! We didnt go in. Cos we just parked the car and my mum deceided not to go.
Then we rented the vid Around the world in 80 days. Lol. We were gna rent white chicks as well but we didnt. And tml we're gna rent like 5 more or smth. Hahaha.
Okay whatever. I'm going to bed. Nitenite everyone. <3

Friday, July 01, 2005
slipped away

Guess what everyone ?
We have a RETARDED sink.. Or water system or whatever
Its offically SCREWED up. Real bad. uhuh. -nods.
Its like choked up. Gna tell dad ltr. To call a plumber next week. Its gna cost a bomb. But it has to be done.. Sigh.
So im hardworking today.
Hanged the clothes, vacummed the floor and picked up the lint on the floor. And re hung the clothes at home cos it was still wet.
NO SUN. Slight wind. Retarded sink. Hurhur.
And not to mention... It STINKS fucking lots. If you sniff it outside. Like puke. LOL.
OKAY WHATEVER. YUKYUKYUKYUK.
Cant bathe long. Longest 10 min. LOL ! Nah...
Okay. GOOD DAY ALL
<3.